Wednesday, April 28, 2010

a new direction

I was diagnosed with high cholesterol at age 17 and up until now I have chocked it up to genetics. After recent months of stomach pains, overall feeling lousy and gaining weight, I scheduled an appointment with my doctor, determined to come up with a way to make myself feel better. I have ended up with "The New Atkins for a New You" book and have dived straight in to this new lifestyle change, encouraged by the support of my husband and family.

Because I want to document this journey for myself ... And because I dislike documenting in a hand-written journal because I write so furiously my hand hurts ... I have decided to revamp the direction of this blog and make it about this. I will share weekly updates, recipes and more about what I'm learning from the book and through this process.

4/22/10
Weight: 174 lbs.
Cholesterol: 242
LDL: 164 HDL: 60
Triglycerides: 88

I did not commit to starting the Atkins plan until Sunday - so that's when I took my initial measurements:

4/25/10
Bust: 42"
Waist: 34"
Stomach: 40"
Hips: 42"
Thighs: 25"
Arms: 13"

** I'm sharing this information not because I really want it known to the world that I'm 40+ lbs overweight, but because I want this to be an all-encompassing, informative log for anyone out there who is possibly on the same journey -- or considering something similar. To hold myself accountable, I will say that my goal weight is 130 lbs. I know I won't have drastic changes each week. I'm sure at some point I will hit a plateau. But I am determined to get there.

Sunday night, I made a delicious Thai Coconut Curry Chicken served over Cauliflower Rice that turned out beautifully. It was not only my first meal ever to cook with onions -- but I also ate them!

Monday was rough. I didn't realize how much the change in diet would affect my whole body - and so quickly - but I felt weak and highly irritable. I weighed myself Tuesday morning: 168 lbs. I understand that it's mostly water weight and that weight naturally fluctuates a few pounds, but I was very encouraged to see that number so quickly drop! I weighed Wednesday morning: 165 lbs.

I had my first true test of commitment on Wednesday afternoon. It was a staffer's birthday and I walked into the conference room, and there sat a beautiful ice cream cake, in all of it's sugary-sweet glory. At first I was delighted - that's habit kicking in - and then it hit me that I couldn't eat it. And it wasn't so much that I couldn't eat it because of "the rules," but that eating even a bite would be a digression from what I am trying to teach my body. I know how sugary, carb-loaded foods make me feel, and I don't want them. It's a decision. It's not forced.

The book does a fantastic job of explaining the process of how our bodies process what we consume, and reading that information has made me aware that yes, it is genetic how my body processes food. But it's up to me to make the decision what food I give it to process.

Today, I made Creamy Crab Dip and a Raspberry Mousse for a Sunday School social because I knew that my options at the pot-luck would be limited. I first found the recipe for the dessert in the book, and the only difference between the book's method and the linked method is the cream. I used heavy whipping cream. This is a sugar-free, delicious dessert that I will make again! The crab dip is also fabulous. I do miss the fact that I didn't eat it with bread or crackers of some sort, but soon enough I will be able to slowly reintroduce these types of food with a new mindset.

I am learning new ways to eat. Breaking old habits. Trying new foods. (I have since eaten onion - again.) I bought celery and lettuce and an artichoke - things I never would have bought before. I am loving my new breakfast of bacon and eggs, snacking on cheese and avocado and learning how to incorporate food I enjoy into this new way of life.

kh

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

naptime isn't just for kids

I love naps. I could nap any day, any time, anywhere.

Put me in a car for longer than 20 minutes - I nap. Sunday afternoons post-Don Juan's visit - heavenly nap. Pop in a movie - if it doesn't hold my attention, I nap. I even snag the occasional nap during my lunch break.

But there is one downside to my napping: the impending drool.

One of my most favorite nap-related memories involves my dear husband, John. I had fallen asleep on his arm or chest, I can't remember, and what woke me up? The pile of drool that had accumulated. I realized what I had done, sat up and looked at him and apologized. He said he had already noticed, but didn't want to wake me up.

I love my husband and I love naps.


kh

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

try, try again

Well, that didn't go as planned.

Turns out, it's not easy to blog once a day when you don't even have a personal computer at home. It's a sad story, but my iBook died a few weeks (months?) back ... hard drive failure. I haven't seen the need nor had the funds to replace it. John has a Netbook as well as a desktop computer (used mostly for recording) that I can access when necessary. I have my Droid Eris (most favorite phone ever) and a work computer that occasionally comes home with me.

There are so many things we "need" to spend money on, from credit card payments to home maintenance, but right now we are barely make the minimums. Any excess spending is out the door. But then John's mother and sister's whole family announce they have purchased plane tickets to Germany for two weeks at the end of July. And what do I want to do? Figure out how to make it happen. What do I need to do? Anything to make it happen.

What do I have to do to make this happen?

kh

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

failure is not an option, pt. 2

Exactly 10 months since my last post. Pathetic. I had a plan on what my first post back would be, but then that plan fell through. I postponed posting because I wanted to come back with a bang. With news. A big announcement. But no such luck.

So I come back to do what I intended to do in the first place ... to write about my life. To not hold back. To hold myself accountable to what used to be a passion of mine - writing for fun.

I am setting a goal: I will blog each day for the next 30 days.

It seems unthinkable at the moment, that I am giving myself an ultimatum on something that I should enjoy. But I have a premonition that if I just do it, I will get back in the habit of enjoying it.

For today's quality content, I present to you a haiku I accidentally wrote yesterday on twitter:
"Weeds grow too fast. Pollen covers everything. Yay spring."


kh