*Looking back on the last few entries or ten, it appears that most posts start the same way. I should either post more or just quit apologizing and making excuses.
Let's get right to it.
06/13/10
Bust: 38.5"
Waist: 32"
Stomach: 37"
Hips: 40"
Thighs: 22.5"
Arms: 12"
Weight: 153.2 lbs
And now again!
06/29/10
Bust: 37"
Waist: 31.5"
Stomach: 37"
Hips: 39.5"
Thighs: 21.5"
Arms: 12"
Weight: 149.8 lbs
Your chin just dropped at the 1-4 digits? Mine too, I know. Granted, that's just 0.2 away from 150 ... Anyway, It's really been in this last month that I have physically noticed a change in the way my body feels to me. Does that make any sense? When you live in your own skin (doesn't everyone?), it's much more difficult to notice the subtle changes -- both good and bad.
Just in the same way I didn't wake up one day and weight 174 lbs. It happened gradually, but one day when my pants were so uncomfortable I wanted to cry and I saw a picture of myself that made me want to hide under a rock -- that's when my weight gain hit me in the face.
Well, now my weight loss has hit me in the face in the form of my clothes. As I was saying before, it's really been in these last few weeks that I am noticing that my body looks physically smaller. But it's the clothes that tell the story. Only one pair of jeans truly fit these days. (I'm really not sure how they made it, because I did force all 174 lbs of me into them on occasion -- surprised they didn't rip at the seems. Thank you, stretch denim!) So Mom bought me a new pair that I wore out to an event for work on June 12, (the smallest size I've bought since I can remember!) and now they are even sagging by the end of day.
But there's this dilemma ... when do you buy new clothes? When do you decide, "Out with the old, In with the new?" Because honestly, in the back of my head I still believe that I will need my bigger sized clothes at some point -- that point when I decide this isn't worth it; that I miss carbs and screw it. It's a bit terrifying because I've come so far. And then there's this other side of my brain saying, "There's still more to go! Yes, you've hit 149, but your goal is 130 lbs -- you're only halfway!" But once I get there, will I really stay there? Because honestly I'm thinking right now that I'm feeling pretty good where I stand. Maintaining a weight of 145-150 lbs feels more manageable ... but maybe that's because I haven't weighed 130 lbs since I was 13.
Regardless of where I end up, the exciting news is that I'm doing it. I'm two months in, doing it right, feeling good about it and want to continue living this change. I will have to buy new clothes sometime soon. But that's part of the reward, right?
In one more month, I will visit the doctor to have my cholesterol levels checked again. Here's to hoping that my progress will eventually make me not require medication to regulate those levels.
I leave you with my favorite new recipe: cauliflower mash. John and I were both amazed at how great this dish turned out, and how similar it is to mashed potatoes. The same night I made this, I also tried two other new recipes: Tarragon Cream Chicken and Turnip Fries. Now, it's not that these other two recipes were subpar. The chicken was amazing and the turnip fries are a great alternative to the way I used to enjoy sweet potatoes. But the cauliflower mash is my favorite probably because (1) it surprised me so much (2) it is so easy and convenient and (3) I know I will make it again and again and again.
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